men!!!

in the theme of man bashing i thought id insert this little article that my mum found in real old magazine that she came across last night. we have been having private jokes about how annoying men are the last day or too so both got a real kick out of this. its nothing earth shattering, but funny little stories...

MEN!!!

(by colette mann, from New Idea)

When it comes to me and men, I'm never right.

I know I'm sounding like Jerry Seinfeld, but truly - what is it with men? And why do they treat women with brains as some type of alien anti-species?

Problem # 1

Earlier this year I was battling with a sports official - male - in charge of Sam's team. The overwhelming lack or organisation and interest in the junior B side was really getting up my nose.

But the higher i went up the team hierarchy the more men I came across and everywhere was the same response - a blank stare, a giant 'hurummpphh' and a huge pass of the buck. Why is it that when a woman states her case, she is seen as either stirrer or a man-hating feminist terrorist?

Why can't we be viewed as concerned citizens and/or mothers or even better, heroines to the cause? All a bloke has to do is kick a goal on the siren to be a hero.

Outcome # 1 = Not a lot. The buck is still circulating!

Problem # 2

Today i visited my GP - male - to get a prescription for my natural hormone treatment. Fifty minutes later i emerged after arguing why i didnt want traditional HRT.

The "male dr V the big booby blonde" debate has been going on for two years. You'd think he'd give up!

I've dont readin and i dont believe HRT is for me. It's a decision I made on an informed opinion.

I love my GP. But I was married to a dr once, and when he said 'Till death do us part' I believed him. That was my first mistake. I've never trusted a dr since.

Outcome # 2 = I got my script, but am girding my loins for the next stoush!

Problem # 3

I convinced John to paint Charlie's room. At the paint shop, i explained the colour mis I wanted for the 'dirty blue' Charlie and i had agreed on. I showed the shop assistant - male - the colour and asked him to double the blue and purple tint.

"You dont want to do that", he muttered. "It'll look awful."

"That's what I want," i recounted.

"No you don't," he said.

I explained I understoodtints and - he wasnt listening! I was a big dumb blonde. He made up the tint as per the card and not as per my request! We paid and left with me seething.

Outcome # 3 = The baby blue paint he mixed i still in the tin and not on the walls

men *grrr*

i dont understand why men have to be so intolerable. so so so so so so intolerable.
this afternoon i decided i would call my very best friend, Tyrone. obviously, tyrone is a guy. we are very close. he is like family to me. i was so pumped about calling him. he is one of those few people in my life who seems to be able to brighten a very crappy day just by saying hello...no not even, all i have to do is see his caller id and im happy.

so yeh, i get a calling card, punch in those many many numbers and wait very excitedly for him to answer....
only to find an unwelcoming tyrone on the other end.

i said 'hi'

and he was like 'um hi'

and i started talking,

then he cut in and said 'hey do u mind if i call u bak later'

and i was like 'uum, yeh sure'

then, wait for it,

he said 'no i mean later as in tomorrow'.

i cud hear his flat mate laughing in the background, or muttering perhaps.

and i said 'wot?'

and then he said 'um, sorry, but im watching black hawk down can i call u tomorrow?'

i cudnt believe he was serious. he was ditching me for a movie.
i kinda fumbled with words then hung up.

i know it sounds lame, but i just wanted to cry. here is my best mate who doesnt even have time just for a 'hello, how r u? i miss u' geez. pause the movie for cying out loud u stupid man!! for ten mins! get ross to chill and have a beer while he waits.

it made me feel stupid. i drop everything for him. im an idiot. if he called and there was a movie on, the movie wud be stopped and everyone wud have to shut up while i spoke to him, y? cos he is my best friend and i havent seen him for 3-4 months. and i miss him sooooooo much. we used to talk on the phone every night for ages. my night felt weird if we didnt talk. wen he was in south africa i cud at least sms him, and we'd make the occasional long distance call. sometimes he'd suprise me and call me on his mobile. i miss that. i miss just being able to chat with him.

anyone reading this is prolly going 'hhmm, she loves him' i prolly sound like an obsessed freak. but i assure u im not. ty and i have been together thru alot. he was there for me wen i got sms dumped by my bf that id moved countries for, he was there for me to help me clean up my act, he helped me gain self respect again, he helped me thru uni, thru tough times at work, i helped him thru girls treating him badly, thru tough times with his mum, thru the death of his mum, thru the death of a girl he was very close with. so really, y wudnt we be close?

i do love him tho. i will admit that. ty is someone that ill always love tho. ill cry at his wedding. and wish it was me, but only cos i know him so well. but him and i wud never work out, so its...ahh i duno, its hard to explain. we do have complicated history...physically complicated,if u get the drift, but i put a stop to that wen i made my 'oath of purity' with myself. which is good. and he really supported that. ppl hear about our friendship and say its weird. and yeh i think it prolly is. but we have a connection. i think we'll be friends for life.

but i was thinking b4 'its times like these i wish i had a bf to talk to and snuggle up to' but i think that if i did, i wudnt have such an in depth friendship with tyrone. my bf wudnt be comfortable with it and to be honest i think ty, out of respect wud be fine with that. but i mean, bearing that in mind, like if i had a man... ty and i wudnt be quite as close, maybe that does indicate that we r a little too close? am i using ty as a 'replacement' bf to fill that empty space without even realising it. i joke sometimes, that he is like my perfect bf, he's there to talk and hang out without having to have anything "else" to keep him occupied. or at least not anymore anyway.

tonite i was chatting my friend max online and we were talking about ex's and the ones who 'got away'...well i didnt have any that got away! (hahaah) but he had one. and we were talking about romance. and discovered that we both lay there at night, wondering if there really is someone out there who is 'the one'. i know i lie there wondering what he is doing, wot time zone he's in...is he lying there wondering the same thing? thats something i guess ill never know.

i have become quite fussy with my men im beginning to wonder if ill ever get one. im no huge hurry tho. im only 19 and im enjoying being single. since my reasons for wanting a relationship r selfish i figure im better off without one. one thing tyrone has helped me with tho, is raising the standards. the drop kicks i went with b4 is just shame ful. but now... my "bf" has to treat me right, he has to speak to me right, hell he even has to touch me right!

i remember once i was dating this guy, um, i forget his name now! HAHAHA. but yeh, anyway it was valentines day, we'd been dating for 2 weeks and he didnt get me anything we didnt even spend the day together. i didnt think anything of it. when tyrone found out, boy was he angry! he was like 'u gotta dump him!' i thought that was a bit extreme, we'd only been dating 2 weeks so it was no big deal. but then he said if it was valentines day and he'd been with a gal only 2 weeks he'd get her something sooooo special becos ur still in the 'i gotta romance her socks off' stage of the relationship. and i realised that he was so right! and thats where i began to raise my standards.

i remember i was dating this punk guy, scott. i was meeting him at the breaky for his 19th bday. i was so nervous. we'd been dating for a week or 2 and i wanted to really impress him. i was telling ty how nervous i was and that i wanted to look amazing and impress him and stuff. and ty said 'well by all means caz, look amazing but ur dating now, he's already impressed with u! dont be so nervous!'...and thats so true. so ive never been nervous round new bf's since.

but yeh...aaaaaaaaanyway. theres so many other stories where he's helped me get better things for myself. but he's not all good. theres been many a nights where ive cried myself to sleep over him. i hate to admit it, but he is my ideal guy. the guy i marry will be him, but christian. he is the guy i measure everyone else up against...y? cos we make such good mates, and i think thats wots important right?

this is weird. i started this email off mad at him, now im like worshiping him ?!?!?!

shmeh

i dont realy even have anything interesting to write
i have been missing my friends alot this week. but i guess that is to be expected.
we have been looking at apartments as we have been asked to move out of the one that we are in as the owners want to move in here...which personally i think is a load of crap. this apartment is not at all nice. and ive seen the owners apartment, sorry, HOUSE ON THE BEACH. i dont really think they want to move in here. i think they want to rent it out for more money. but they wont get it. this place is gross. it is "home" for us tho. but yeh we found one apartment we really like. its actually 2 storeys! 4 bedrooms, 2 bathrooms, 2 sitting rooms, the lot! and we have kinda seen inside and they have really nice wooden floors and door frames and nice lighting! it looks quite royal compared to our place. so hears to hoping that we can get the price down from 4000 Yuan a month to 2000 -3000 yuan. we only pay 1000 yuan a month here, so its a pretty big price jump.

my canadian friends leave for beijing for the holiday next week. so i wont get to see em for quite a while as they r working over the weekend. so i cant see em b4 i go. *sigh* oh well. still got my family!!!

hmmm.. i dont have anything cool to write :-(

missing my caz

oh i am just missing my friend cara so much. i have been thinking about all of our fun times together...alot of them involve our time in her car.
she is really quite a good driver, but sometimes we get talking, and laughing, and lets face it - grooving and theres been many a time shes run up curbs....hahaha. much to my entertainment.
some of my fave pass times include screaming out at the top of our lungs to words to our fave songs....one in particular...'the reason' by hoobastank. this song is OUR song cos we wud hear it in the car ALL the time! and on the chorus we wud like drag the words out real long like for instance "ive found a reason for meeeeeeeeeeeeee, to change who i used to beeeeeeeee." hehehe. So ive decided to put the lyrics on here cos i listen to this song all the time to remind me of her.

I'm not a perfect person.

There's many things I wish I didn't do

But I continue learning

I never meant to do those things to you

And so I have to say before I go

That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me

To change who I used to be

A reason to start over new

and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you

It's something I must live with everyday

And all the pain I put you through

I wish that I could take it all away

And be the one who catches all your tears

Thats why i need you to hear

I've found a reason for me

To change who I used to be

A reason to start over new

and the reason is You [x4]

I'm not a perfect person

I never meant to do those things to you

And so I have to say before I go

That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me

To change who I used to be

A reason to start over new

and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show

A side of me you didn't know

A reason for all that I do

And the reason is you

*sigh*

busy busy busy

hey hey hey
well its been a few days since writing on here. i dont seem to be able to view my blog, or anyone elses at the moment. the link works for other ppl but its not working here in china...*sigh* wotever. i wont let it get me down .i will just keep writing and believe that all will work out.

i have been a real busy chicken. thursday shani and i went shopping for AGES! it was her bday on friday so mum gave us heaps of money to go hard and enjoy ourselves and hopefully find something for shani for her bday the following day. it was so much fun. i bought this black bag that ive been eyeing off for ages! its HHUUUGEE! i cant explain it. ill have to get a pic of it. i love it. and i got this louis vuitton daily planner that ive been obsessing over! i actually found one! i cudnt believe it...AND i found a louis vuitton business card holder thing. i wanna use it for going out. so i can put my money and id in it and then just stick it in my pocket, rather than carrying a bag or a purse or something.

friday was shani's bday. we got her a whole bunch of stuff from an avon shop thats on our street and few other bits and peices. we really wanted to get her a nice dressy suit, like pants and a nice jacket but its just too hard to find real nice, good quality clothes that r at a reasonable price here. unless u get them tailored and we just cudnt be bothered with the fuss of measurements and bartering for price of labour and then material. its a real effort.

we went out for lunch which was real nice then i had to go and teach in the afternoon. when i got home jon, shani and i jumped in a cab and went into Dalian. on friday nights they have youth. they all go to thise peoples apartment and play games and watch movies and just hang out. they have been trying to get me to go but i wasnt really interested as there is really nobody my age. but i went last night and i had such a good time! we played this game called 'sardines' its like hide and seek...except that only 1 person hides and then we look for them in pairs. wen u find that person u have to hide with them and that goes on until everyone finds them. its kool cos like u have to find a hiding place thats good for quite a few people, not just one person. i think i lost every round that we played. hahaha it was good fun tho. then we went inside at about, 10.30 and watched a DVD, cypher. that was real cool. then i was tired so i went to bed.

this morning we got up, had breaky then played monopoly. but there was 8 of us playing. it was too much for me so i pyked and had a shower and got myself all ready. after we went to maccas for lunch then went to this university to play 'ultimate firsby' that was real fun. its like football except with a frisby. very exhausting tho and today was very hot. i kept having breaks to get out of the sun becos i remember i got burnt here once and the sun can be quite vicious.

so yeh. we basically just got home. tonight we have a going away dinner for this guy david that we know, he's going back to the states. so that shud be nice. any excuse to get all dolled up, and wear my fave hot boots! they wont know wots hit them!!!!!

hope

i have been battling with myself about alot of things. my place in ch-ch especially. but the last 24 hours have been so huge for me. i know the battle is not over, it never is, but i know for sure that either way i have won.

its so clear to me now that anyone can quit but it takes guts to tough things out and push through those barriers that seem impossible to push through. but with Him nothing shall be impossible.

last night i feel He told me that next year will be tough for me. The things that He is telling me to do will make life very busy. it all seems very overwhelming, and most certainly impossible. but it wont be done in my strenth. it will be a time where my relationship with Him will HAVE to flourish. He told me that i will HAVE to rely on Him and rely in His strength.

Things that i would usually waste my money on will have to stop. My faith for a car will have to increase. I am going to save for a trip. i know everything will fall into place. He knows my needs and he knows my desires. im very scared. but i feel that since i am so challenged that it must be His will. If its easy it cant be something with huge results.

i want to type out some devotionals that i read lately. they spoke to me so much and its something i dont want to forget.

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September 15..."Supernatural Connection"

Psalm 118:6..."The Lord is with me; i will not be afraid. what can man do to me?"

You dont have to be afraid! I may look as if everything is falling down around your feet, but dont react to it. Just stand your ground. Be like the little guy who came into my office some 20 years ago and said, "Kenneth, I've quit my job. I've decided to live by faith and preach the Bible."

I sat there and looked at him thinking. "He coudnt breach his way out of a paper sack! Lord, it won't be 90 days before this guy will be back wanting money." The Lord answered, "Then give some!" (that ened right there!)

That young fellow didnt look like he had much going for him, but he had dug unto the Word and spent hours upon hours listening to messages and studying his Bible. Over the next few years, some people told him he couldnt preach. (not me. i was smart enough to keep my mouth shut) Still he wouldnt let go. Others told him he wouldnt amount to a hill of beans. Be he wouldnt let go.

He went into one of his first meetings only to find a transformer had blown and the lights wouldnt work. Instead of canceling the meeting, he walked up to the podium and hollered, 'Let there be light!' sure enough, the lights came on. he just wouldnt give in. He stayed connected to faith.

I asked him once, "what would you have done if the lights hadnt come on?"..."I'd still be stand there hollering at them," he said.

That fellow is still connected to faith today. Just think what a loss it would have been to the Body of Christ if he had disconnected from faith and let fear stop his ministry. It would be just as great a loss to us all if you stop short of your calling as well. So stay connected to faith - and Gods power will stay connected to you!

Read: Joshua 10:1-14

Confession: The Lord is with me. I will not be afraid of what man can do to me. (Psalm 118:6)

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September 16...The Best Timesaver of All!

Proverbs 4:7-9..."Wisdom is supreme; therefore get wisdome. Though it cost all you have, get understanding. Esteem her, and she will exalt you; embrace her, and she will honour you."

"I'm just too busy!"

That the number one reason christians give for failing to spend time with God. Teenagers run from one activity to the next taking care of their social life. Business people rush out the door early every morning and fall into bed exhausted at night. It seems we spend hours thinking how to squeeze more time out of each day. Our schedules are so packed, the demands on our lives are so heavy, that it just doesn't seem we have time to give much attention to the bible or prayer.

The truth is, we don't have the time not to! When your heart is full of God's promises, when trouble comes, Hid word is the first thing out of your mouth. To have your heart ful of His pomises, you need to do what Joshua 1:8 says: You need to "mediate on the word." To meditate means to fix your mind. So fix your mind on what the Bible says every day. Apply it to yourself personally. Allow the Holy Spirit to make it real to you.

Carefully ponder how what you've read applies to your life. Ask yourself, "what does this say to me? what does it mean in my life? How can it change my situation?" Then place yourself in agreement with what God says about you in that passage. Make up your mind that you are who God says you are. You can do what God says you can do. You can have what he says you can have. Put yourself in agreement with Him, then receive it.

I know you're busy. There are tremendous demands made on you every day. But God promises that if you'll keep His Word in front of you, you'll know how to succeed in all you do. Now, that sounds like a real time saver to me!

Read: Proverbs 3:1-8

Confession: I get and esteem wisdom. Wisdom exalts me and brings me honor. (Proverbs 4:7-8)

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blown away

omg
last night would have had to of been THE windiest night in history. i woke up wondering if i was still in china or if we'd blown to another country! evidently no one else in my family heard it. but i didnt imagine it.
this will be a shorty cos i need to go and have a shower and make myself beautiful. we have some visitors from australia which is really exciting. im looking fwd to going shopping with them today!
oh i found this really nice bag in newmart the other day. its black and its like fake leather stuff and its HUGE. its just a plain big black bag. and i just love it. its simple. it wud be a real funky uni bag.
oh and also yesterday i saw this girl with a loui Vutton (spelling?) daily planner! now i dont even like loui vutton cos everyone has it and its all fake. but i have NEVER seen a planner like this. so now i am on the hunt so i wen i get back to oz i can be the envy of all. i like to be at least a little different!

well im off.

hello :-) 

a time to grow?

its hard to believe that i have been in china for over 2 weeks. in some ways it seems ive been here alot longer, yet at the same time i feel like i only just got here. i know everyone says that about alot of stuff, but im being serious!! i actually mean it!!! :p

its funny tho how in that small space of time (small in comparison to my life) alot can happen. not so much phsyically but mentally and spititually. im still the same person. i havnt changed, im still odd but ive been doing alot of thinking. ive had alot of free time. its like, being in china i feel like im looking down on my life in perth and pulling it to peices and analysing it. wot is good? wot is bad? knowing that things wont be the same wen i get back. which in come cases is good but in most, is bad. i hope that my friendships dont change. i place very high value on friendships. with my family being so far away its important to have ppl close to me.

ive decided to read the whole bible while im here. ive worked out wot i have to read every day to make sure that i do so. i got a little behind to start with, which resulting in many hours of reading these last 2-3 days. but now im up to date. im enjoying it. god is speaking to me. in areas that i need it...but theres still many many areas left to deal with. the old testament is so far very boring. altho im enjoying reading about all those stories u learn about in sunday school. its interesting wot u remember and wot u dont. i need to pray more tho. praying is someting i rarely even do. which is really bad. actually its stupid. i enjoy it. i need to lock myself away.

i met some nice ppl at a foreign fellowship last sun and im hoping to attend there again this weekend. actually, i met a real nice guy there. whom i can not stop thinking about. hes canadian. cute. but i think he's like 27 maybe older. he doesnt look it tho. but to me, well thats kinda old. i dunno. i am sure that nothing will come of it. but i enjoy his company. hes very easy to talk to and we get along real well. hes a gentleman too. opens doors for ladies, always lets them go first thru a door. im a sucker for guys like that. but yeh. i cant even remember his name. hahha IM NOT WORTHY! hes actually going to australia in january wen i fly back. but sadly hes only going to the eastern states not perth. typical. maybe i can persuade him? not likely.

boys r just too hard. i received this rather random email from an ex the other day. he was one of those guys that i will never forget. one thing i have forgotten tho is why i was attracted to him! haha. gosh that sounds mean. wot i mean tho is, he is a goth. actually here is a link to the pic of him that he sent me so i cud see the new peircings he has. http://www.clubblink.net/blinkweb/gallery/album27/res23510 wen i was with him he had 2 tongue rings and his labrette done. he always talked about getting a third tongue ring..i dont know if he did or not, but he's got two rings in his bottom lip. i cant say i ever liked those...i cant help but stare at them. hehe. but yeh anyway. we were only together for like 3 weeks...which is pretty long for me . he was quite morbid. very actually. but i liked him. he was mysterious. he was also the best kisser ever! oh my! actually wait, no, chris, he was the best kisser ever...oh i dont know!
but yes. i dont even know wot i was going to write anymore. woops.

i think i will leave it there for now b4 i confuse myself