dreams

hmm the other night i was doing a study with some girls from church on dreams
not like, la la dreams. but dreams that we have for our lives.
as we sat there discussing our dreams with one another i felt kind of sad as i realised i didnt have many. mine were : i wanna finish uni and i wanna go on the mission field again...one day....eventually.
everyone else had HEAPS of dreams. gosh i felt kinda silly like i had none and that i wasnt thinking enough about my purpose and about things that i need to be doing with my life until i can reach those other goals and achieve those dreams.
so i got home and was like "um god. hello i want some dreams" and he said "hello ive given them to u, how could u forget?!"
wot is going on with me when i forget that i REALLY want to help girls realise that they dont need to sleep with guys to feel fulfilled. that being 'loved' by a guy is not what they really need to feel complete..that they are not a half that needs to find another half to feel whole. i want girls to see themselves as a whole that needs to be pursued and valued.
i dont ever want to let go of this dream again. its so so important.

...i also hope to get married, have children, become an awesome teacher and own a house by the sea :p

feeling good again

i went out last night and when i got home, naomi said that i looked really pretty. it felt like a really long time since id heard anyone say that to me. i went upstairs and looked in the mirror, and finally im feeling good again. my skin is getting beta and im feeling more like me! im happy to be me again. so in celebration here are some self-loving pics of me. haha. strange i know, but they made me feel good about myself again, just wot the dr ordered.