Sunday, December 10, 2006

happy happy joy joy

hello
i have not written for a very long time.
woops
hehe
i am on holidays now, on the uni break. except i am taking an extended break from uni - for a year in fact. i have enrolled for bible college at my church and altho i am so so nervous about it i am also very excited :-)
working a bit now. will be working alot after next week. show me the moola baby!!!
i am with my hot robbie now. we have been going out now for 3 months, 1 week and 3 days. haha. sorry i dont know how many hours. he is so wonderful and i have never ever been so happy in my entire life.
that is all
:-)

Sunday, September 03, 2006

so....so happy

its been waayyy too long since i have updated my blog, very naughty.
alot has happened since i last blogged and i dont even know where to begin. what shocks me is ive spent the last month or so thinking "but i have nothing to write about"...who was i kidding?!

well hillsong was amazing but i dare not go down that path of discussion again
my time in qld with my family was the best! i had alot of fun, alot of laughs, good times, but sadly broke my arm on the 2nd last day of my holiday. i fell off a horse..why is it so many ppl say "gee carrie, trust u to do that"....i mean HELLO i was a cowgirl at my 21st - im not sposed to fall off!!

anyway almost 6 weeks later and the healing process continues. tmrw i am visiting the specialist to get an update on my progress. last update was that the healing wasnt going as fast as it should have been, so this time around i am believing for a much beta report. ive started to notice that my right arm is getting thinner than the other due to lack of muscle movement and therefore lack of muscle presence in general!

uni has been going well despite the injury and i havent let it deter my studies. so im proud of myself. im actually really enjoying uni this semester which is great.

the only other major thing, and ive saved the best til last, is that i have now got a boyfriend. it seems weird even typing that and im still coming to terms with it myself. its still a fresh thing, we only started officially dating since thursday. so im still adjusting to it all. but really loving the whole experience. his name is rob and hes such an amazing guy. ive NEVER been treated this amazingly in my whole life. we have been hanging out a bit, getting to know each other better and really enjoying each others company. we were at coco's on thurs for dinner, which was devine, then he took me to the c restaurant for coffee and asked me there, if i wanted to make things official and be his gf. it was so lovely and special and exciting. for the first 24 hours i struggled to adjust to the fact that i now have a bf. and there are no words to describe the things that were going thru my head. but the time we've spent together recently, at a friends birthday last night and with his family today for fathers day, just realy hit home how amazing Robbie is and how truly blessed i am to have him in my life.

yeh, i just dont know what to say except that i am so blessed and so so happy.

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

in the spirit of re-focusing

in the spirit of re-focusing on what is important i thought i would write a short post on the WAS and AM of my life.

I WAS....
damaged
heart broken
dishonest
selfish

i was involved in an unhealthy circle of drinking and bad relationships.
i was fooling myself into thinking that it would not effect me
i was fooling myself in that i thought i was doing what i wanted to do.

BUT THEN.
god intervened in a way i could not ignore. things happen to us, wake up calls. things that catch our attention for no particular reason except that life sucks and you need a way out and even if you dont want to admit it, the life you have is not what you want, no matter how much you pretend you want it.

i sort love in wrong places, i did stupid things in order to make myself feel beautiful, loved and desired.

I AM
happy with who i am
healed inside and out
made whole again.
honest
loved

i am enjoying the life god intended
i am healed from all the physical but more importantly emotional damage that i inflicted on myself and received thru bad relationships
i am enjoying healthy, rewarding relationships
i am more happy than i have ever been in my entire life
i am enjoying my personal, rewarding, uplifting relationhip with God.

To any one who reads this, my life was messed up. i performed and pretended so people could not see the mess i was really in, but god sees everything, he knows your heart but more importantly he knows your potential. i pray that god brings you into an amazing new life where you reach the potential he has for you...because its beyond anything you could ever imagine.

my god reigns

Sunday, July 09, 2006

hillsong

wow what a week!
i just attended my first hillsong conference and now i never want to miss a year. it was just so so amazing. seriosly there are no words. "mind blowing" is a word ive commonly used to describe how i have felt at the end of each day. and that didnt even come close to expressing how i felt.
each day was amazing. alot of ppl preached out of exodus in reference to leadership - i think ill have to have a read of that book in light of leadership hey. very interesting.
i visited 'jam' which is the youth hillsong conference. man that was AMAZING! 4000-5000 youth praising god and getting convicted. they didnt even trash the joint, i was impressed!
israeal houghton was there. what an amazing worship team he has. and it was so exciting to be able to sing along to such amazing music without having to follow the words...hehe just scream the words out and boogie around. the new hillsong live album is gonna be amazing. we sung 'dance dance dance' alot and to anyone reading this you NEED to buy that cd cos that song gets you dancing, you cant help it! not that dancing like a fool has ever been an issue for me :p but dancing around - carefree just to worship god and to let every movement of your body be a glorification for god - its so liberating and fills you with this joy that ive never experienced b4.

all the speakers were truly amazing. reinhard bonnke was so goood!! and seeing the short clip of his campaigns in africa gob-smacked me! all you could was ppl. everywhere. its amazing the way he reaches the millions. he told a story of how he received a threat from osama bin laden!!! crazy! not just any threat either - a death threat!! you know your doing something right when osama bin laden wants you dead. hhehe. good thing us god wants him alive so much more so the devil hasnt got a chance. *na na nana na*

we also had delirious there. the little concert they put on for us was amazing and the lead singer was so amazed at the crowd - how could you not be amazed at the scene of 30 000 ppl all worshiping god in unity, its enough to take your breathe away thats for sure. and its a sight i NEVER got sick of!

altho the whole conference was amazing, the final session was THE BEST!!!!! the 7:45pm session on friday night was a praise party and annointing service. my ticket was behind the stage - as usual. so as usual i stood in line for a better seat with jon. then when we got seated, i got a call from sam sheedy, saying come down - we have seats saved for you (PRETTY MUCH AT THE FRONT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) so we bolted down and got such amazing seats! the praise and worship started off as usual and then we watched a dvd of 'hillsong memories' showing 20 yrs of hillsong - what a crack up!!! some VERY bad hair styles and outfit selections!
then we had hillsong 'top ten' where we sung a mix of the top ten most impacting hillsong songs over the last 20 years - that was so so cool! and wow all the lights and sound and media was done to COMPLETE excellence!! on the roof at the back of the dome on the last night they projectected "GLORY TO GOD" wow it looked so amazing. oh and i forgot to say they had these dancers at the start, that was cool (but our sunset dancers are better sorry. hahaha) and yeh, then we had the annointing part of the service where EVERYONE in the entire dome - thats like 30 000 ppl got annointed with oil. i got annointed twice. HAHA but i wasnt gonna say anything! the worship played in this was so touching and my tears flowed like a river - goodbye mascara. some ppl just got a dot of oil on the forehead and that was it, but i got blessed, the annointing peeps that i got prayed as well. gee its mindblowing when a stranger speaks stuff into ur life thats SO SO spot on. and THEN to have words in the worship line up perfectly with the things that god is telling you. god shared things with me that made me cry cos i dont want to do them. hha. what a spoilt brat. BUT GOD I DONT WANT TO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but its been great how gods had grace on me and let me grow more happy and accepting with it all.

THEN we had the praise party! and since god knows my hearts desires - i wound up in the mosh pit! THATS RIGHT! I WAS IN A HILLSONG MOSH PIT! aawwww yeah!!!! it was amazing. ive never sweated so much. haha. but it was so great to jump and dance and just offer every last peice of energy i had as a sacrifice of praise to god. its so....urrggh no words. liberating, freeing, uplifting. it was AWESOME. and i cried a little as my younger brother jon - who spent the whole conference hardly muttering a word of praise, or raising his hands to god - mosh, dance, sing and praise god. oh my heart was just beating so fast. it blessed me so much to see him get into praising god. i wanna cry just writing about it. i had prayed and prayed that god would touch him at the conference, i know that he really did.

anyway. i could write on and on and on. but i wanna finish on that high note. im now in brisbane staying with my brother ben, his wife linda and their son joseph. hes so cute. he's 21 months and so so so so cute. im loving spending time with them. so i beta get back to it!

Friday, June 23, 2006

what a night

oh what a night.
last night was the mercy ministries ball. and i went with a guy from church - rob.
i dont even know where to start. i had such an amazing night and it still doesnt feel real.
i got treated like a princess. like i was worth millions. and i didnt know how to react.
i had a headache afterwards, which im pretty sure was from smiling all night. rob looked real spunky in his cream suit and funky tie (is that how u spell tie?)
he borrowed his cousins WRX and it sounded totally sweet - and im not even that into cars!
i dont even know wot to write.
i just had a brilliant night and im still pinching myself.
i knew how i deserved to be treated
but last night god showed me.
all in all it was such a wonderful night and rob prolly thinks im an idiot cos i spent half the night stunned. haha.

after the ball i went home and got changed into my pj's and an aussie flag then went to my friend hwins house to watch the socceroos in the cup. wow wot a stressful game. those umps SUCK. but yes the beta, more sportsman-like, betta looking team made it thru to the next round. lets face it, aussies are HOT.
haha

Tuesday, June 20, 2006

me yesterday

Today i got my hair done! i love it! so im glad i have some BEFORE AND AFTER SHOTS! :p

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me today!

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Monday, June 19, 2006

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a new season

our land lords are selling our house. i was so sad wen i found out. i love my ocean views. in summer they are so so amazing. in winter they are kind of dull. but not always (atm it is really windy and the ocean looks horrible)
and so the house hunting began
only to come to an ugly halt after re-doing my budget and having a cry wen i realised just how much money i DONT have to put towards rent, let alone the bond too.
but, as always, all has worked out. i am moving in with the borretts for a while. and i move out next week. somehow i have gone from 'not wanting to go' to, 'i cant wait to leave'.
but im gonna have to leave behind zac and abby :-( THE LOVES OF MY LIFE!
oh well, they will still have each other and can make out til the day the music dies.