that tingling feeling

i thought i'd forgotten about "that' feeling. forgotten what it feels like. that over whelming tingling and buzz when you see someone that you really like. that shock that goes up ur spine when they touch you. the way ur stomach turns into knots when your eyes meet. its such an awesome sensation. it sends u on such a high. and im on a high. and its a high thats different to any old random crush that only lasts a week. leaving Dan behind is going to break my heart :-(

we had lunch together on thursday which was pleasant. we had japanese. had a good chat. then last night (friday) we went out again. i met him at McDonalds in Walmart and we had macca's (healthy..lol) then he grabbed some groceries from walmart and we walked back to his place. we played with his new hamster...its sooo cute! its name is nancy, one of his students gave it to him! hehe. so funny. and um, yeh then we watched a movie. at about 11-11:30 we made our way to "JD's", the foreign nightclub.

it was just him and me and Raphael, who rocked up later but we didnt really see him much. there was actually quite alot of chinese there last nite. not as many foreigners as usual. i met some funny german guys. one who tried desperately to crack onto me all nite. it was funny tho. wen i first saw him, he comes up to me, puts his arm around me and goes "australian girl!" HAHA. i was like "um sorry, i forgot ur name" and he was like "u havent met me, but i remember u from last week, i saw you" haha. (must have been that crazy pole dancing) and later on i asked him if he liked chinese girls, and he said no, so i asked if he liked german girls and he said "no, i only like australian girls" haha. he was funny. i guess under normal circumstances he may have done a little better with me but i just had eyes for dan, so he had no hope. oh! and some other guy, who's face i didnt even see was behind me at the bar and fussing over my freckles. he was like, poking his finger onto them and telling me "oh wow, so beautiful" HAHA. wot a joke.

i met some more aussie gals. one was even from perth! she seemed nice. didnt seem like a perth gal tho. funny that. one other chick tho, from melbourne, she was awesome. her and i got up on the podium and danced our little hynies off! she was great fun to dance with.

i prolly drunk a little too much. its hard to tell wen ur dancing. it puts ur judgment right off i reckon. but i sure felt my 2 shots of tequilla in the morning. i dont think ill b doing that again. u always learn the hard way. *shakes head*

but yeh, anyway. i was almost convinced that dan was not into me AT ALL. but then out of nowhere he appeared up on the podium with me and we had a nice lil dance together. then we got down and went and grabbed a drink. then after a while we sat down. we had our arms round each other. and then, we looked at each other and then....we kissed :-) thats a moment ill remember forever. damn. he is the best kisser EVER. no one has ever kissed me like that in my life. anyway i wont go into details. but i was one happy chicken. hehehe.

soon after that we left and went back to his place ... haha. gosh that sounds so evil and naughty doesnt it? "we left and went back to his place". but nah. we got back. he grabbed his stuff and went to stay at his friends and i crashed. ..not without getting another kiss tho. its so cute that he stays at another friends house so i dont feel uncomfortable. its good tho, that he has no alterior motives and respects me.

this morning i got up and he came over round midday. then we got our stuff together, went and had lunch, then joined the crew for frisby for the afternoon. gosh, the look on everyones faces when we rocked up together. funny. they can think wot they like. we were well behaved and are perfectly innocent.

all in all i had a good time.thing is tho, even as we sat there kissing (at "JD's"), as much as i was flying, my heart was sinking as i realised, this is one guy i dont want to lose, and theres nothing i can do about it.