fridays entry...

well, here i am, its friday nite, and im at home. im not out with dan. i didnt even bother asking mum. i decided that my mum still thinks im a water sipping virgin and for now that suits me. i know she hates the idea of me going out to bars (altho, she must know, deep down, that i do) also, it wud hav meant me coming home in a taxi by myself late at nite (or early morning). Kai Fai Qu is a 40 min drive from down town Dalian n i dont think its safe to b in a cab alone - being a foreign gal n all.
i explained that to Dan n he seemed confused. then he realised that he was getting kai fai qu and hai shi jiao mixed up. then he suggested i crash at a friends house in Dalian. but i quickly reminded him that i have no friends in dalian! then desperately (it seemed) he suggested i stay at his place... ... ... omg. i was so shocked that he said that. i dont even know y. i guess cos he's a church go-er too, so i didnt see it coming. but i mean, from the chats ive had he doesnt seem to be too 'by the book'. i think he cud tell i was shocked by my silence. in australia tho this wudnt have shocked me, but for some reason this did. *weird* then he said, or i have a friend, thats a girl, who's place u cud stay if ur more comfortable with that?

i just so didnt know wot to say.i felt trapped. part of me was like "oh u SO want to stay at his place carrie" (i hate to admit that, i thought 'that' part of me was gone, but its still very much alive) but another part was like, "find an excuse quick" haha. in the end i told him id think about it n call him back at 6 after id finished work.

i remembered that i was baby-sitting in the morning at 9am. i called him at 6:30 n told him the 'bad news'. he did seem a little let down. i apolagised n said that the odds were against me n that it wud just have to happen another time. he said that was fine n that it cud happen any weekend so we'll have lots of other opportunities to hang out. we checked we were both going to frisby tomorrow. i told him to have a good time n hav a drink for me!

in a way im a little relieved. nothing serious wud ever result from this, but it makes me feel so nervous. i guess im a lil afraid that ill really start to like him. im just not in the mood for falling for someone a month b4 i leave here. im gonna have to guard my heart n just enjoy some laughs with him. but either way, im looking fwd to seeing him at frisby tomorrow..hehe . this is so much fun.