how things change

well my beloved tyrone has been gone for a week and a half now and well, wot was i worried about? im coping just fine. between uni, church and work i dont have time to worry about it. i miss him though. he called me on saturday which was such a wonderful suprise and that made me miss him lots. but its not killing me. ive just got so much other stuff to focus on right now, uni being the main thing.

i just got home from a few days in harvey. it was nice down there. i stayed at an old friends house up in the hills. its so beauitiful up there. they have 2 horses and 2 cows and there are kangaroo's around. its so peaceful! i got lots of reading and note taking done for an essay thats due next week (yes, its due next week and im still taking notes, NAUGHTY) i caught up with a gf from high school and saw a few of the boys in the streets. i hate to say this, but its such a loser existence. ppl who stay there end up with dead end jobs and if ur female, u get pregnant. its just horrible. my friend from high school, she is working out at Greens (or harvey beef, as the city folk wud know it) and thats ok, cos its good money but she is so smart and shud just be using it as a building block, to earn lots of money b4 moving onto something better. its such a waste. one guy that i saw, he used to be such a huge geek at school and i was always nice to him. he saw me from across the street and came running over and gave me this big whopping hug. gosh he stunk. he was working out at harvey fresh and was as stoned as a driveway! that really saddened me, even the losers are taking drugs now! b4 it was only ever the popular ppl! and then i ran into brendan, he was a real nice guy in highschool, quiet, but real sweet. he seemed pretty good, but i later found out he's into some pretty heavy drugs (i mean, ok his mum died, he has an excuse, but he can do so much better) it was just really quite depressing going into town and seeing how some ppl had turned out :-( but oh well. u get that i spose. ppl dont always turn out the way u expect them to!

it sure is good to be back in the city tho! gosh i love it. i never thought walking into the city train station id feel so much love. haha!
wot really annoyed me was the state of the house wen i got home. b4 i left on saturday i made sure that the kitchen was spotless, i did all my dishes and wiped down all the benches and took out all my crap from the dining and lounge room and put it in my room. that way karen wudnt have to put with my rubbish while i was away. WELLLLL!!!...i got home today, walked into the kitchen and OMG wot a feral disgusting smell! there was rubbish and food everywhere. the lounge room was a real mess too. and it made me so mad. there was a note apolagising, saying that she'd clean it up, well far out, she better, i wudnt touch that in a nuclear safety suit! it just annoyed me cos i dont think its fair to come home from a lil holiday to a pigsty of a house, that u left in clean condition. too bad if i was having lots of friends over tonight.

gosh this is a bit of a complaining whinging blog! hehe. im really not angry or bitter! i am really very happy. :-)

well i must go. gotta go home n eat (somehow in that ugly kitchen) and do some more study (puke)