promise you wont forget me?

Last nite i was talking to my friend Andrew on msn. i guess we've been chatting on there for a bit over 2 months. seems a lot longer than that tho, like we've known each other for ages. thats how i feel anyway. He's been the very thing that has kept me sane while ive been here in china.well, him and this blog! i doubt that he realises it though. it seems weird that someone online can have the ability to make a good day out of a crappy one. weird...but good.

I have other friends too that i keep in contact with, like ruth. we chat every day. im so thankful for her friendship. i know that when i get back to perth we will truly embrace each other and share our experiences, as she once spent 3 yrs in china. I do have a good support group of friends in Perth, but i do feel that some of them have forgotten me. or maybe are taking advantage of the fact thats its a short trip anyway so its no great loss if they dont call or email me. Tyrone calls me nearly every week. i'm sure he has no clue as to how much that makes me happy.

but last nite, as my convo with andrew started to draw to a close...as it was like 2 am for him, poor chicken. i told him that "im so thankful for his company", or something to that affect, i cant quite remember exactly. but then he said something along the lines of that, "wen i get back to all my friends in perth ill just forget about him. " oh my heart sunk when he said that. i mean, it was prolly just a passing comment, but i felt as though maybe he truly does believe that ill forget him. which i wont. i never will. i told him id neva forget him, not a million yrs. but i dunno, he hardly seemed convinced. but who can really tell on the internet. theres no expression, just text n the odd emoticon. he bought up that i wont have msn in perth. which means that we wont b chatting at all really. i told him that ill still have email and that i can always call him. but once again, he didnt seem convinced. he soon retired n went off to bed, understandably. i too went to bed but lied there awake wondering wot the future of our friendship holds and if he REALLY does think ill forget about him. to be honest, im more afraid that he'll forget me! in bought may next yr he's going round the world for a yr, maybe two. i cant imagine him coming back and wondering to himself "gee i wonder how caz is going?" not becos he isnt a nice person, but becos, with all his new experiences, why wud he remember me?

I esteem andrew very highly. He had a fair bit to do with y i've chosen to spend a week in brisbane and not just 2 days. im really looking fwd to meeting him and hanging out. maybe we'll hate each other and drive each other nuts! haha. but then again, maybe we'll have a blast together. and i hope its the second one. but hey, at least if its the first one we wont feel so bad about 'forgetting' each other. LOL.

i guess friendships are never secure. u never really know where they are gonna go. and sometimes they are just a little too easy to ruin. but why is that? i guess that every precious thing is also delicate. and thats y friendships fall apart. andrew and i have had a lot of laughs. i hope that we stay friends for yrs n yrs to come.